As the new year approaches, I have made some very drastic changes in my life, yet again. I have left the man that I called Master and that held me up as my life fell apart because of my husband leaving. As the new year approaches, I am officially starting over. I have no home because my husband decided not to pay the mortgage. My dogs that I love more than anything in the world are in temporary care of some very good friends of the community.
There has, however, been so much good come out of all this, I just had to come on here and brag a little. First, I found my true self. Doing that has left me a little confused off and on, though. I have found out that I am not a slave anything, not even a submissive or a switch. I am a dominant that for the right person and having the right state of mind, I bottom for a scene.
Second, thanks to finding myself, I have found someone that I have fallen madly in love with. This is the kind of love that proves that I've never been in love before now. He is my slave, he serves me no matter what I need or want. At the same time, he has made me a much better person on the inside. I cuddle now (never did that before), I have to have him in my bed holding me or I don't sleep. I never even did that with my husband! This man, this slave, is the Gods gift to me, and I thank them every day for him contacting me to catch up when he did.
Don't get me wrong, I've had some down falls since this as well. I have lost two people (a submissive and a slave), both of whom I did love, just not the same way. I have had to morn those relationships while still being extremely excited that my relationship with slave is growing each and every day. I have a female submissive who is also a little, a pup, and a kitty all rolled up in one. Like the others, I love her, just differently. Because I left the man I called Master, I am currently staying at my ex-submissive's apartment until I can get enough money to get my own place again.
I have one new clips store on clips4sale, with two more coming out either by the end of this year or the first of next. I also partnered up with a store on there to trade some clips off and on with her. Oh, and there is a new fetish site coming out, that I am very proud to be a part of starting on the ground floor.
I've had huge ups and downs in the past few months. But, every morning I wake up knowing it's going to be a great day. I know this, because I am loved by not only my friends, my slave, and my little, but also by you, my many fans. I know everything is going to be ok as long as I push forward. I know this in my heart, in my mind, and in my soul, so watch out 2013, because this is going to be the year of Jackie Daniels aka The House of Daniels.
